3 month bandiversary thoughts & pics

Things got a lil busy this week but I finally got around to putting together my comparison slide. You know I realized that had it not been because I was making this comparison slide this picture of "full size" me would never have made it to see the light of day. I look at this picture and I say to myself.."my God how could I ever let it get to this point!??" I thought about this question for quite a while and figured that the denial that I was living in was the very thing that got me this far. Whne things got rough instead of facing them I just denied the severity of them and fed myself to feel better, when the stress got bad instead of acknowledging that I had to change the way I was doing things I just denied that a problem exsisted complained about the stress and fed myself to feel better, when the jeans got too tight instead of facing my problem I just denied that it exsisted and bought a bigger size... denial got me there...but today...

Today I am feeling GREAT !!! In the 3 months since the new me was born I have made the changes in my life that are changing my life every single day. I no longer prepare for the pain that I will feel in my knees when I step out of bed..I just hope out pain free !, I no longer have to worry about avoiding mirrors because I am so excited to see the changes that are happening everyday, I no longer have to fear  going out to dinner and having to deprive myself of my favorite things because I AM NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FOOD !!! I FINALLY HAVE CONTROL OVER WHAT I EAT, WHEN I EAT & WHY I EAT !!!!  My God it feels so good to be able to say that and mean it...I LOVE IT !!!! 

Yes it's been a hard road these 3 months and yes in 3 short months I have lost 53 lbs ( as of today) but I have worked for my loss every step of the way !! I am making the right decisions about food and making the gym a part of my routine and I had you asked me this 5 months ago " do you want to go workout ?" after looking at you crossed eyed & laughing ever so sarcastically I would have said as much as I want an enema !! but today the answer is a resounding YES ! That yes is gonna get me to the woman that I want to be and the woman that I deserve to be, not only for my family and my future but most improtantly for me !! and I deserve all of that !!!!