What the scale says...

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

new year, a new me and new hair


I read an excellent post on Sally's blog where she listed a bunch of positive words to live by for the upcoming year and I thought it was just a marvelous idea !! So I choose ALLOW as my 2010 word. This upcoming year I plan to ALLOW my true self to shine through. I will ALLOW myself to love myself and enjoy all the wonderful work I have done for myself this past year. I will allow me to be me to my fullest potential and most importantly I will ALLOW the me that has been trapped inside all these years out to run, scream, laugh and play. So with that I decided to take the first step and give the new me a new look !! So what do you think...??

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

It's Gen and Linda to the finish line...




I wanted to post the last 2 week of results of my biggest losers challange know that where getting down to the wire. All these girls have done an utterly amazing job especially in these ever so tempting weeks !! All of them have served as a great mountain of support and inspiration to me through out these weeks and kept me motivated to do my best, so ladies take a bow because you are all definitely stars in my book !!!

So as it stand now it is a total neck to neck battle between Gen and Linda with only a fraction of a number in total pounds loss during these 10 weeks !! SO WHO WILL IT BE ?????

Monday, December 28, 2009

Disney Holiday lights

Hola people ! I'm still trying to get back to the norm with all my posting and everything but I wanted to give you guys a peak at a video from the Disney Spectacle of Lights display at the MGM Studios. It is based on The Osborne Family's million christmas lights display and it is simply breathtaking. My 2 yr old niece was just blown away by all the lights and was actually clapping at the end of the dancing lights show..it was soooo cute !!
I will post other video's a pics tomorrow but wanted to get this one up as soon as possible. See ya'll tomorrow !

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Santa came to town and gave me...

2 days of a stomach virus!!! Yay what a wonderful thing to have at
Xmas time ( not!!!). I'm just getting back to my normal self..... I think?
I'll be testing it today but for the past 2 days I've sat by as yummy leftovers
were had and even the occasional cookie was savored as I sipped on
my water ! Boo- hoo !!!!
As soon as I can get some real food into me I will post about my
little monkey ( who I so miss already :( ) and our adventures in Mickey
land !!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

A quick hello from mickey mouse land....

Hola people, just wanted to give a quick hello to all from my christmas vacation with mickey mouse. I'm spending christmas with my sister and my mom and my gorgeous yet ever so active niece who will be turning 2 soon ! The days have been full of laughter with plenty of baby hugs and kisses, so y'all understand why I havent been posting this past week !! I'll be back in full swing next week with all the updates on the holiday biggest losers challange as well as some pics of my adorable niece !

Till then a  VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL !!!

BTW...yes the seat belt on the plane fit just perfectly and there was more than enough room to move around in total comfort !!! YES !!!!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

A few good tips...

If there is one thing that I learned quickly in this process is that it's all about making smarter decisions so that the weight will come off without the usual cost of starving or deprivation of food. My one key rule that I have stuck through since starting this journey and that they also suggest below is cutting the calories in liquid. I never realized how many calories I was drinking away without really getting anything from them. Nowadays I substitute my drinks for strickly water and when I want a sweet treat I mix a pack of the grape propel mix ( 50 calories) into a bottle and it is a wonderfully great and yummy sweet treat without the calories of juice.

I foudn this article below withy some really good tips on how to cut 200 calories from our everyday which can really amount to a big difference come weight in day...although I have to say that I could never do their coffee trick...coffee is sacred !!!

13 Easy Ways to Save 200 Calories a Day



By incorporating even one of these smart tweaks from diet and nutrition writers into your day, you could lose up to 20 pounds a year!


By Cheryl Brody






Substitute Yogurt for Mayo


“When making tuna salad, use 2 percent Greek yogurt, about 75 calories for half a cup, instead of mayonnaise, about 450 calories for half a cup. Greek yogurt has the same texture and creaminess as mayonnaise but far less fat and calories. I use the tangy Greek yogurt as a lower-cal replacement anywhere I’d regularly use sour cream or mayo.”


Skip the Cheese


“Build a healthier sandwich: Hold the cheese because two slices can add up to well over 200 calories. Load your sammie with low-calorie veggies or go gourmet with slices of apple and pear.”






Make Over Your Milk Shake


“I love milk shakes, but at 420 calories for a small strawberry fast-food shake, they can be a real diet breaker. So when I’m in the mood for one, I blend a cup of 1% milk with a cup of unthawed, unsweetened frozen strawberries and a teaspoon of agave nectar for a delicious and satisfying cold treat. It’s only about 170 calories, which is a savings of 240 calories.”


Save Your Salad With Salsa


“When ordering salad out, ask for salsa or pico de gallo instead of dressing. Many restaurant-size servings of dressing have around 300 to 500 calories. Using salsa, even half a cup of it, will likely save you hundreds of calories and dozens of fat grams—half a cup has 35 calories and almost no fat. And salsa rocks on salads.”


Beat the Office Munchies


“Every afternoon at work, I tend to want a snack. With small chocolates in my co-worker’s nearby office—five mini chocolate bars are 210 calories!—and a vending machine down the hall that’s calling my name, I avoid the temptation by chewing a piece of fruit-flavored sugar-free gum. Sugar-free gum comes in all kinds of fun, tropical flavors these days like sangria and pina colada, so I feel like I’m indulging even though I’m not.”


Embrace Water


“Many people forget that calories you drink count too, so I try to be aware of what I consume in liquid form and drink as much zero-calorie water as possible. Simply cutting out a 20-ounce bottle of regular soda saves more than 200 calories. Plus, when I’m hydrated, I can more accurately tell whether I’m actually hungry.”


Pop Your Own Corn


“Next time you go to the movies, bring your own popcorn. Microwave kernels in a brown paper bag and use a little nonstick spray. Season them to suit your mood: savory with garlic powder and sea salt, sweet with cinnamon and a few dark chocolate chips, or ‘cheesy’ with sea salt, chili powder and nutritional yeast. It’s delicious and tastes just like cheese with fewer calories!”


A Breakfast of Champions


“Instead of the average 450-calorie cream-cheese bagel, I have a Thomas’ English muffin with two tablespoons of fat-free cream cheese for a similar taste that saves about 300 calories.”


Invest in a Steamer


“Food steamers save calories and your time. Before I got my steamer, which has multiple layers, so you can cook your entire meal at once, I would usually pan-fry salmon in oil or butter or cover it in sugary teriyaki sauce and bake it. Both of those methods add so many unnecessary calories. Now when I get home from work, I throw veggies, brown rice and salmon with a lemon slice and some fresh parsley in the steamer. It absorbs all the flavor, and it tastes so fresh that way. It takes 15 minutes, so I avoid fatty takeout.”


Slim Down Your Strawberry Shortcake


“In the summer, I particularly love strawberry shortcake at a barbecue. I bake my own angel-food cake, slice it thin and throw it on the grill for a few minutes instead of using a biscuit—that cuts about 100 calories right there. Then I use a balsamic reduction—cook the vinegar down slowly until it’s about half the volume it was originally—and drizzle it over the strawberries and cake. The flavors are so elegant, and no one misses the whipped cream, which would usually tack another 100 calories onto the dessert.”


Give Mashed Potatoes a Healthy Twist


“For me, mashed potatoes are the ultimate comfort food. To make your potatoes healthier, try using equal amounts of potato and another mashable vegetable, like cauliflower or turnips. Not only is this reducing the calorie content, but you’re also adding extra nutrients to your plate. To add even more flavor, replace butter and whole milk with a small amount of tahini and some fat-free yogurt.”


Create Your Own Chips


“Instead of snacking on tortilla chips and salsa, I make my own pita chips in the toaster oven. I cut a whole-wheat pita into small triangles, spray them with no-calorie cooking spray, sprinkle with salt and toast for about two minutes. They taste just as good as regular tortilla chips but without the added calories and fat. You can even add garlic salt, cinnamon or paprika to jazz them up.”


Coffee, Hold the Milk


“Instead of a latte, order your coffee drink Americano style, which is espresso with water instead of milk. A 12-ounce Americano is 10 calories versus the same-size latte made with whole milk, which comes in at 180 calories. Nix the sugar—two packets are 30 calories—and you’ve saved yourself 200 calories.”

Monday, December 14, 2009

Holy crap batman..I'm in the 200's...


yeah folks that's right..I could bearly beleive it when I stepped on the scale....there it was a 2 followed by a 0 !!!! Holy crap !!! That means that I have officially loss 60+ lbs, that the equivalent of losing my niece off my body...

It seems like this last fill that I got maybe doing its job and giving me restriction. I am having things happen now that didnt before...some with some slimey consequences !!! But morning time...dont even try to eat anything solid ( good bye pancakes ), my friendship with even toasted bread seems to be a fleeting relationship at this point and eating more than a cup even when I want to because it's really yummy...oh no!!
I really thought that I had the handle on the ins and outs of this band thing, but now I see that this is an ever learning process and that they're are consequences is you try to challange it !!!

It is week # 7 in the holiday challange and this week Sarah's the leading loser ( YAY Sarah !!) with a big fat 5 gone for good !! Great job girls keep it going only 3 more weeks to go !!!



Friday, December 11, 2009

okay..okay I know..

Yes I know that I am SOOO delinquent this week in my postings, but this week has just been INSANE !! Every possible thing just HAD to be done at work and not to talk about the meetings on the side...man, it just felt like it went on forever and ever and ever...WOW ! By the looks of it, I'm not the only one !!!
Well only one more official day of work on monday and that's it till January. I'm off to sunny (?) orlando for a week of my baby fix ( with my niece).

This week has also been difficult with the tracking and the eating and the going to gym. I only made it 2 this week and my tracking has been awful !! Good thing is that I pretty much can gauge my intake at this point but there were a couple of meals that while I didnt go crazy or anthing, I didnt make the best food choices...popcorn 2 this week, chinese beef, dumplings..you get the idea. My portion control has been pretty consistent though and I do think that this last fill that I had on friday is giving my restriction, which I still need to get used to...hence the PB episode at subway earlier this week !! ( YUCK!). It's funny I find that it's easier to lie to people and just explain my PBing by saying " Morning sickness, it's a total joke" then to actually explain things....funny huh?

I failed to post the results from this sundays weight in earlier in the week, so here they are and BIG CONRATS to this weeks new leader KAREN with a 5lb loss...WOO HOO way to go Karen !!!

Okay long enough post for tonight....


Sunday, December 6, 2009

Shopping trip for NY/NJ bandsters...

I was just trying on some of the "new me" clothes and realized that it would be great to go shopping with a bunch of girls that would understand the giddiness I feel in shopping for all this smaller size clothes. So I was wondering if there are any NY/NJ bandster girls up for a little shopping trip ?? I'm thinking the week between Christmas and new year since the deals should be good that week. Besides I COULD ALWAYS use a new bag....

Let me know what you think...

Almost out of the 210's..

Hola people, WOW I just feel like even though school's over I have all this stuff to catch up on !! But I did manage to get my 5th fill this last friday. It was a small one of only 0.2cc since both my surgeon and I feel we might be getting close to the sweet spot. I have a total of 6.5cc in my band and am noticing that my restriction is somewhat there, also I am losing intrest in alot of common foods !! I no longer really even want bread of anytype. I havent had a band friendly snadwich in weeks !! rice, which I LOVED, I take 1 or 2 spoons and done with that.


So besides being almost out of the 210's...I'm at 210.2, which is huge for me since I havent seen a number in this range for maybe 5 years or so ??  Most definitely wayyyy before I was married !! and on top of that I'm almost at the 60 lb loos mark ( I'm at 58.8 lbs gone..YAY !). BUT the best part was that before I stepped in the shower this morning, I lined up my toes on the tile line, stood up straight and looked down...AND OH MY GOD..I SAW THE TIPS OF MY TOES. WHAT??!!! yep you heard me the belly no longer shadows everything that exsist under it's reign !!  Yes,sir that's right I'm putting the piece back in their place and the boobs...beware your next !!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

New Katie Jay Article..

Some of her views I may not totally agree with like in some of her articles  but I like to read and post her stuff in hopes that we can all take home a part of the message that will help us in our journey. BTW I did read her book "dying to change" which was very eye opening and insightful. If anyone wants it, please post a comment or send me an email mrscutecuban@gmail.com

Dear Small Bites readers,
I was talking to my neighbor yesterday, as she was returning home

from a cookie-exchange party. She recently shared with me that she

has been diagnosed with type II diabetes and is now on medication,

but we didn't discuss that yesterday. She talked cookies.

It's like she lives in two different realities. One involves going to

the doctor and taking the prescribed medication, the other involves

making choices that completely undermine her treatment.

I've been like that most of my life. I complained about how I felt

all the time, and continued to eat in a way that was perpetuating my

poor health and everything stressful that comes with that.
In my new life, as a coach, I help people find ways to stay connected

with their healthiest reality -- the one that can bring them a deeper joy.
It's not so much about getting people to do things my way. It's about

helping people to find a way they can live with, that supports their most

dearly held goals and aspirations.

During this holiday season, I plan to skip the cookie exchanges. They

never turn out well for me :o). Instead, I'm going to invite friends to

go on Christmas-light walks and to meet for movies. And I'm going

to practice gratitude.
Peace to you,

Katie

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Back to the routine...and some normalcy

Well my final exam is tommorow and then I get to breath till mid january..phew !! I'm kind of glad to be back to my trusty & comforting routine...this week of excess cooking and eating was actually very distracting and disturbing !! I know we're suppose to be able to just carry on and eat whatever we want, but is it weird that I dont want all of that stuff ?? I'm as happy as a pig in mud knowing that I get to eat my greek yogurt and my milk and sensible lunch. Maybe a cheese stick here or there and some peanut butter or something...but all the mac& cheese and ham and turkey and on and on and plate after plate was just disturbing in some way...has anyone else felt like that ???

Also back on track was my workout routine. And man after not working out in almost 5 days...my God was that a TOUGH step class on monday..Youza ! And then I guess in a sub-concious way I wanted to punish myself so I decided to take this Tabata Challane class today..yea good job buddy..OUCH !!! For those who dont know what the tabata challange is..well it's a HELL of a workout !! 1 hr of a non-stop circuit course with spinning, immediately followed by jumping jacks, then run over to the step and do mountain climbers, then up and over to a step with 3 risers and jump straight up and lunge, then  back to the bikes and do it all over again...WOW...we'll see if I ever attempt that again.

I had a mini-goal 2 weeks ago of hitting 210 today to try to make it to 199.9 by Jan 1st. Well while I did manage to loose 0.8lbs this torturous week, I am not at 210. I am still very happy with my progress since I am down 12.3 lbs this month and who knows if I work my but off ( meaning more tabata challange) I might still make that 199.9 goal..which would mean 14.2 lbs in a month...oh boy...well BRING IT !!!

WOW that was a rough week

okay people here are the numbers for week 5 of the holiday biggest losers challange and I have to say that although it was definitely the biggest challange food wise that I've faced so far I still managed to make it out with a slight loss ( DAMN EGGNOG !! WHY MUST IT BE SO GOOD!!) Well it's a new week and time to get back on track.

Kinzie takes the lead this week !! GO KINZIE !!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

What I'm most thankful for...


As thanksgiving approaches I start to think what I am most thankful for this year and ofcourse I am thankful for all the blessings that I am given everyday, my family, my wonderful husband, great friends, a home and a great career but this year I am more intune with something that before I didnt realize I was missing, which is ME !
For so long I hid all the potential that I truly have because my weight was a great big shell. For so long I was sooo bored with who I was because I wouldnt allow myself to enjoy the beauty of life and  because I felt so ashamed of myself I had lost all hope that there would ever be a different outcome. But this year I feel like I have received this incredible gift of myself, of feeling alive and full of energy, of wanting to get outthere and expereince the true beauty of everyday, I just feel like I want to skip along like a 5 year old all day. It is truly such a blessing to feel like I rediscovered something that was loss for sooooo long !!!

Here's to 55 and counting ....

Monday, November 23, 2009

FFC Holiday Challange Week # 4

Yes Ladies I know we're facing a tough week coming up but we've done so well we need to keep it going !!! Dont those down slopping lines look so beautiful ??!!!

Nicole is back in the lead...you go girl !!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

My weight loss TOP 10 !!

A while back on LBT we had created a post about what our top 10 milestone, acheivement, reward goals were for our weight loss. The list was compiled when we were all pre-op and seemes like very lofty goals at the time but as I go through this journey I find that I am most happily meeting some of those already and wanted to revamp my top 10, as well as note the ones that I've accomplished already !

Since food was always such a BIG part of every aspect of my life and since I used it as a solace and a reward mechanism I wanted to set rewards that were completely non-food based !! and I actually found this great article which I'm aincluding at the bottom of the post that has some great ideas...

My Top 10 list....

10. Being able to do 30 minutes on the elliptical without dying ( TOTALLY DONE)
9.  Being able to bend over and tie my sneakers without feeling like I'm having a heart attach ( TOTALLY DONE)
8. Being able to wear a belt with my jeans, without having to add extra holes for it to fit ( TOTALLY DONE )
7. Being able to say GOOD BYE to the plus size store for EVER !! ( GOOD BYE AVENUE !!)
6. Being able to sit in my airplane seat only without spilling over or being uncomfortably tight ( Will see next month!)
5. Being able to wear knee high boots and a cute skirt
4. Able to give myself a pedicure
3. Walking into Vickie's and confidently buying the cutest lingerie there in a normal size
2. Making hubby drool in such afprementioned purchase
1. Taking sexy professional budoire (sp?) pictures for hubby in said purchase and having effect mentioned in # 2

I still have a couple of these to accomplish but I feel DAMN good that I've conquered some of these already !! Rewards are a big part of any project and I think that I am my most important project so... much to the hubby's discontent,I hope to have something else in the mail on it's way to me soon !! LOL !! Maybe I just need to find somewhere else to ship it too...LMAO !!

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10 Ways to Reward Weight Loss Efforts Without Food







By Carmen Staicer - DietsInReview.com


If you are in the habit of rewarding yourself with food for a job well done, what do you do when those treats no longer fit your diet plans? When you are trying to lose weight, it goes against all you are working toward to celebrate that five pound weight loss with a big slab of cheesecake (unless you're prepared to hit the gym to burn those 500 calories!).

As you work toward your weight loss goals, staying motivated can become very difficult. Often rewarding yourself is just the motivation you need. So here are 10 non-food rewards to celebrate your hard work.


• Purchase a new exercise DVD


• Try a new fitness class - if you are walking, try a spin or martial arts class. You have to think beyond your comfort zone!


• A new outfit to set off your slimmer figure


• New music for your MP3 player


• Reward your hard working muscles with a massage


• Get a mini makeover with a new hair color or new makeup


• Start a savings account and set aside a small amount of money for each pound lost - between $1 and $5. When you reach your goal, donate that money to your local food bank.


• Do something you never had the courage to do when you were heavy. Maybe hang gliding, sky diving, or para sailing?


• Get a new tattoo or piercing


• Schedule meet-ups with friends in a non-food atmosphere. Why not catch up while hiking or get pedicures?


How do reward yourself for all of your hard work?

Friday, November 20, 2009

My holiday plan and a great NSV

So realizing that thanksgiving is next week and then Christmas followed by new years I thought it would be a good idea to layout a plan of attack for the next following weeks. As suspected my weight in this week will be back to a normal 2 pounds since last week was a combo of fill week and PMS week so I get huge numbers with those two but to make sure that I stay on track with all the partying coming my way my goals for the next wouple of weeks are:
  •  210 by Dec 1st. This would mean that I need to loose 4.6 lbs in 11 days ! Better amp up my water intake.
  • 203-205 by Dec 18th this would mean 5-7 lbs in 18 days. This is the first time that my sis and mom ( who doesnt know about the surgery) have seen me since last time when I was 269. They havent see me at this weight since 2004 and I would really love to see their jaw drop when they pick me up at the airport.
  • 199.9 by Jan 1st this would mean 4-6 lbs in 14 days . It would be the most AMAZING thing ever if I were able to make it to onderland by Jan 1st, I think I would just flip out !!!
I know some of there goals seem a little too ambitious but I feel that this might help keep me in line around all the egg nog and the stuffing etc etc !! And I already have plans for the reward....okay I went to Marshall's today and completely fell in love with a new bag ( I'm a BIG bag girl!) and figuered I could totally get the hubby to agree in allowing me to buy a bag worth $1 for every pound I've lost and if I stick to my goals I can totally get this gorgeous Guess bag that I fell in love with since I'll be down 70 lbs and $70 bucks gets you ALOT of bag at Marshalls...good plan huh ??? BTW I have to post pics of my 50lbs bag !! Love that one too !!

Anywhoo onto my NSV that I was just tickled pink about ! I went to the NY Philharmonic on tuesday and was just floored that I could fit sooooo comfortably into my seat !! OMG !! I remeber going to see the Phantom of the Opera back in Dec of last year and feeling so tight and uncomfortable in my seat !! But not this time around I was even able to cross my legs without having to do a yoga move to get it there !! I was so proud of myself YAY ME !!! I cant wait to get on that plane for christmas and see how much of a diference it will be from June when we went to Alaska and I barely fit into my seat and almost needed a seat belt extender..OMG !!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

My Plan...

So someone asked me in an email to write a quick post about what I have learned works and doesnt work for me at this point on my journey to losersville.
I decided at the start of my pre-op that if I was gonna undergo such a drastic measure to get healthy then I was gonna do it the right way ! For me all my previous attempts had failed because of my lack of being able to comprehend that the key to being successful in losing weight was that I had to come to terms mentally with what I was-what I need to do and most importantnly what I needed to stop making excuses for !

I finally realized that my main problem was that I had no will power when it came to food temptations and most importatnly that I had no self control. I needed to learn these things so my first action once I started pre-op was to get rid of all those things that I thought would pose a problem...this unfortunately included some of my hubby's favorites but I quickly reminded him that our vows included making sacrifices for eachother. So out went the soda, bye-bye went all the chips and cookies and the kool aid. No more hershey's kisses or PB cups !! It is completely true what they say that out of sight out of mind !!!

Then it was time to face the music and I finally took in, in all of it's unglory the truth of what my body had become with a hard look in the mirror ala naturale !!! I had avoided really looking at the problem for so long knowing that it was easier to just deny the problem..again out of sight out of mind !! I was gonna do this and I was gonna do it right !!

My doctor has a very strict policy on what was allowed or not so I chose to follow her instructions to the tee ! That meant the 10 days of liquids, the 10 days of true mushies and finally then the solids and that's when the real work begins because the safety of the strict guidelines was kinda of really gone ! So what have I chosen to do for myself as I jog my way to the emerald city well....

  1. I monitor my calories very closely and really watch what I eat. No I'm not on a diet, but I am VERY conscience of what goes into my mouth !! If I want a piece of godiva choclate I will have 1 piece, enjoy and savor and moan my way through that piece but that's it !! I restrict myself to less than 1200 calories of day.
  2. Of my 1200 calories, I keep my 3 main meals at 300 calories and allow myself 300 calories for snacks. Protein ALWAYS comes first before the carbs or the snacks and I always eat in a measured (1 cup) kids plate that I bought at walmart. I make sure to get in my 3 servings of dairy a day ( great source of protein) including 2 glasses of Skim PLus milk and a FAGE greek yogurt in every day. My snacks will be a string cheese stick or 2 tbsp of hummus with some pretzel crisps or some apple slices with some lo-fat peanut butter.
  3. I try to NEVER finish everything on my plate. Even if I can eat it all I try to always leave a lil bit. The reason I do this is to teach my mind that I dont need to clean my plate. growing up we were always so guilted into eating everything on the plate even if we we're no longer hungry...you know the whole starving children in africa bit !!
  4. I go to the gym 4 times a week no matter what. Rain, cold wind, tired, shopping excuses just dont work! Because the only person who pays in the end is me !! I do a 45 minute step class 2x wk, a kick boxing class on fridays and on tuesday's I do the elliptical at a 9 incline/8 resistance and at 170 + steps per minute. I've also started to do my C25K training on sat mornings.
  5.  Most importantly I stay true to myself and surround myself with great support ( like you guys who are the reason why I'm at this point in my journey). I've set goals that are acheivable and ways to reinforce my thinking on what my goals are. I have clothing reminders of what I where I want to be and do reward myself when I acheive my goals. It is also very important for me to feel better about myself and reward my progress, so I put more effort into  my apperance. I wear make up now, accessories with belts and wear clothes that hsow my curves and the progress that I've made and DAMN DO I FEEL GOOD !!!
 So much for a quick post..... all I know is.....HAWAII here i come !!!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Week # 3 on FFC's Holiday Biggest Loser's Challange

Hola my fellow loserinos !! here's the update on week 3 of my Holiday Biggest Loser's Challange and it seems that this week I'm holding the losing stick..YAY !!! If the scale went the wrong way this week...no worries just give it your biggest battle scream and show it whose boss next sunday !!! ROOOAARRR !!!


What a great idea...

So I was crusing through Angie's blog and found this incredibly creative questionaire..she always has these cool little ideas and decided to steal it for myself so here it is




Saturday, November 14, 2009

3 month bandiversary thoughts & pics


Things got a lil busy this week but I finally got around to putting together my comparison slide. You know I realized that had it not been because I was making this comparison slide this picture of "full size" me would never have made it to see the light of day. I look at this picture and I say to myself.."my God how could I ever let it get to this point!??" I thought about this question for quite a while and figured that the denial that I was living in was the very thing that got me this far. Whne things got rough instead of facing them I just denied the severity of them and fed myself to feel better, when the stress got bad instead of acknowledging that I had to change the way I was doing things I just denied that a problem exsisted complained about the stress and fed myself to feel better, when the jeans got too tight instead of facing my problem I just denied that it exsisted and bought a bigger size... denial got me there...but today...

Today I am feeling GREAT !!! In the 3 months since the new me was born I have made the changes in my life that are changing my life every single day. I no longer prepare for the pain that I will feel in my knees when I step out of bed..I just hope out pain free !, I no longer have to worry about avoiding mirrors because I am so excited to see the changes that are happening everyday, I no longer have to fear  going out to dinner and having to deprive myself of my favorite things because I AM NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FOOD !!! I FINALLY HAVE CONTROL OVER WHAT I EAT, WHEN I EAT & WHY I EAT !!!!  My God it feels so good to be able to say that and mean it...I LOVE IT !!!! 

Yes it's been a hard road these 3 months and yes in 3 short months I have lost 53 lbs ( as of today) but I have worked for my loss every step of the way !! I am making the right decisions about food and making the gym a part of my routine and I had you asked me this 5 months ago " do you want to go workout ?" after looking at you crossed eyed & laughing ever so sarcastically I would have said as much as I want an enema !! but today the answer is a resounding YES ! That yes is gonna get me to the woman that I want to be and the woman that I deserve to be, not only for my family and my future but most improtantly for me !! and I deserve all of that !!!!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

WOW that was a big fill !!!


Hola people! Wow it's been a very busy week so I've been neglecting my blog a bit. Final exams are coming up soon, so really focusing on those BUT there have been some happenings in Bandland!!

Let's see today is OFFICIALLY my 3 month bandiversary !! OMG ! I can't beleive that it's only been/ and has already been 3 months since I took this wonderful step in my life. I will post my comparison pics either later or tmrw ( have a paper to finish first, which I should be doing now !!). In these 3 months I feel like I've come so far from what I used to be not only physically but mostly mentally. I still astonish myself when I make certain decisions on what to eat and what to say no to, that I would have not even considered 4 months ago !! Halloween would have been a completely different night had I not had "lucy" to help me through !!

I did have my 4th fill on monday and that one was a very DIFFERENT expereince then all my other ones. I went in having 6 cc's in my band and considering that I hadn't had a good loss the previous 2 weeks from the 6cc fill and that I am STILL hungry every 2-3 hours and able to eat anything but untoasted bread, my nurse decided to be a lil adventurous and gave me a 1.7cc fill....well....I sat in the waiting room sipping on my water and was feeling that this was NOT gonna be good. After 10 minutes and only 2 sips it was pretty much obvious that that fill wasnt gonna work. When I went back in and laid back..oh boy !! Can we say ectoplasm release !!! Luckily it was only water !! He took out .25cc and left me with a fill of 1.45 and boy was that such an instant relief !!! So I know officially have 7.45cc in my band and I'm feeling that this might be getting close to where I should be. I know it's hard to tell until I hit solids for a couple of days but even 2 days out liquids are STILL gurgling through my band.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Holiday BIggest Loser Challange WEEK # 2


~~~ WAY TO GO NICOLE ! WEEK # 2 LEADER WITH A 5.6 LB LOSS !!! ~~~
Let's keep it going ladies !! Remeber to send in your weekly weight next sunday to mrscutecuban@gmail.com


Friday, November 6, 2009

Just when I needed a good laugh today...

I got this email from a friend and it made me crack up !! So I thought I would share it and know that you guys will get it the same way !!!

When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking Twenty-five miles to school every morning



Uphill ... barefoot...BOTH ways Yadda, yadda, yadda


And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of crap like that on my kids about how hard I had it and how easy they've got it! But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today.


You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in a damn Utopia! And I hate to say it, but you kids today, you don't know how good you've got it!


I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet. If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the damn library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalogue !!!


There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter - with a pen!


Then you had to walk all the way across the street and put it in the mailbox and it would take, like, a week to get there! Stamps were 10 cents!


Child Protective Services didn't care if our parents beat us. As a matter of fact, the parents of all my friends also had permission to kick our ass! Nowhere was safe!


There were no MP3's or Napsters! If you wanted to steal music, you had to hitchhike to the damn record store and shoplift it yourself!


Or you had to wait around all day to tape it off the radio and the DJ would usually talk over the beginning and @#*% it all up! There were no CD players! We had tape decks in our car. We'd play our favorite tape and "eject" it when finished and the tape would come undone. Cause - that's how we rolled, dig?


We didn't have fancy crap like Call Waiting! If you were on the phone and somebody else called they got a busy signal, that's it !


And we didn't have fancy Caller ID either!


When the phone rang, you had no idea who it was! It could be your school, your mom, your boss, your bookie, your drug dealer, a collections agent, you just didn't know!!! You had to pick it up and take your chances, mister !


We didn't have any fancy Sony Playstation video games with high-resolution 3-D graphics !


We had the Atari 2600! With games like 'Space Invaders' and 'Asteroids'. Your guy was a little square! You actually had to use your imagination!! And there were no multiple levels or screens, it was just one screen... forever ! And you could never win. The game just kept getting harder and harder and faster and faster until you died! Just like LIFE !






You had to use a little book called a TV Guide to find out what was on! You were screwed when it came to channel surfing! You had to get off your ass and walk over to the TV to change the channel ! NO REMOTES !!!


There was no Cartoon Network either! You could only get cartoons on Saturday Morning. Do you hear what I'm saying!?! We had to wait ALL WEEK for cartoons, you spoiled little rat-bastards !


And we didn't have microwaves, if we wanted to heat something up we had to use the stove! Imagine that !


That's exactly what I'm talking about! You kids today have got it too easy. You're spoiled. You guys wouldn't have lasted five minutes back in 1980’s!






Regards,


The Over 30 Crowd

Thursday, November 5, 2009

My closet attacked me & threw out more size 20's to share

Hola People ! I did a lil shopping this week and since the closet is in cahoots with the hubby in keeping me from shopping it threw at me whatever size 20-24 were left in there. They both beleive that if I add something..another thing must go !!!  So my fellow sisters of the traveling pants, dresses, tops..etc etc let me know with a comment or via email (mrscutecuban@gmail.com)  if you'd like any of these. Just please remember that you must promise to pass it along when you're done !!!

Size 24 Avenue Flowery Dress ( I just wore this once this summer on a cruise, it's gorgeous!)

Size 18W/20W George Blue Paisley Dress ( This was my go to dress all the time !! I even wore it to my bridal shower)


Size 22 Avenue Black/White w pink ribbon dress ( I LOVE this dress !! I just wore it ONCE this june to a wedding...but no longer fits ( hooray!))


Size XXL Oldnavy Long Sleeve Layering Tshirt


Size 22 Sarah Jessice Parker Jeans (Left) , Size 20Avenue Jeans (Center), Size 18W Avenue Stretchy Jeans (Right)


Size 20W Faded Glory Jean Capris ( These were my go to capri's during the summer LOVED them!)


Size 20 Oldnavy Khaki Pants /Size 20 Sarah Jessica Parker Black Trousers ( These are BRAND NEW w/ TAGS)


Okay this might be a little taboo but thought I would offer them up if someone cna use them. I have 4 pairs of very gently worn and extremely clean and well laundered and cared for size 42DD bras from Lane Bryant Cacique brand. I know some people arent comfortable with undergarments but if you dont have an issue with it, I guarantee they are VERY clean and in EXCELLENT condition.


Tuesday, November 3, 2009

A mish mash of things & lothing on tonight's Biggest Loser !!!

Tonight's episode was okay I guess, didn't feel like anything spectacular but the one thing it really made me realize is how much a truly dislike Tracey !!! For as long as this season has been on, she has had an excuse for every single thing ! I just wish someone would turn to her and say " Shut up, quit your crap and work out or get out ! " I am posting this prior to the elimination and I can only be hopeful that she goes home !!!

 I am sooo happy that Shay finally broke that  400 lb barrier and I love her comment that "this was my hard work and mine to claim" that rang a bell with me because I have for so long avoided to take credit and accept compliments on my weight loss because I didnt know how to. I spent sooo many years try to hide my weight issues and pretend that they weren't there that I forgot how to be proud of myself and my accomplishments. I forgot how to look in the mirror and not fight back tears of disgust. I now happily appreciate and accept all the compliments that just keep coming...although I blush at every single one but most importantly when I look in the mirror now a days it's not tears of disgust but tears of being happy and proud that I have conquered the deamon that kept pushing me down, that I am breaking through against the immense wall that kept me locked away from enjoying all the wonderful things that each day brings but most importantly knowing that I will never be a prisoners of those feelings of self lothing but that I can now enjoy being a beautiful and confident woman !!!!

I am attaching another of Katie Jay's article which I think is very appropriate given this weekends events....

Dear Small Bites readers,



I hope you survived Halloween without too much
stress. If you got off plan during the holiday,
remember that beating yourself up about it will
not help you to get back on plan.

When I'm off plan, I talk nicely to myself.
I say, "It's okay, Katie, you can start over
right now. Notice how quickly you are taking
responsibility! You can do this."


And then I just keep starting over until it
sticks. No judgment. This is a life-long
journey.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Let the game begin....

Alrighty ladies..the official challange is on ! Remeber to weigh in on sundays and send me your weight to post and lets watch the graph just hit the floor !!!

If you still would like to join our friendly battle of the holiday bulge then just email me your weight as of sunday and a picture of you on the scale with the weight visible and come join us as we lose this holiday season.



Saturday, October 31, 2009

FFC's Holiday Biggest Loser's Challange



Hola all !! Just a reminder that tommorow Nov 1st is the official start of my holiday biggest losers challange. Just a fun way to keep us all motivated during the ever so tempting months ahead. The winner of the challange will receive a gift card to either Origins or Victoria Secrets to pamper themselves or a signigicant other with their slimming sexy body. So here are the rules:

  • In order to participate in the challange you must be one of my followers
  • Have had been banded within the last year or will be banded or started liquid pre-op diet by the 1st week of Nov.
  • Must weigh in weekly on sunday's beginning tommorow Nov 1st
  • Must send an email to mrscutecuban@gmail.com with your weeks current weight.
  • Must send a picture of you on the scale on the first weigh in Nov 1st and the last on Jan 1st.
  • Have fun losing the weight and gaining confidence and awesome curves !!!

A Good and Bad and then Good day...

Like most I had been dreading halloween actually gettting here ! Dont get me wrong I LOVE HALLOWEEN, I just dont love all the candy and sugary temptations that come with it. That being said today was a Good and then Bad and then Good again kind of day. It started of great because all ofthe morning a great big bag of all my favorite choclates sat on my desk for the at work trick or treat that we do and not once did my hand or mind wander that way...so YAY me for that !! but then I went out to lunch with a friend, leaving the comfort of my tightly controlled lunch and yogurt from home behind.
This is where it went wrong...off to Applebee's we went ( my choices, which makes this all the worse!!). the menu comes along and instead of ordering something from the weight wtchers menu which ofcourse would have been the healthy choice, what do I order...hmmm...some boneless buffalo wings to start and then some fried crispy shrimp and fries !!! WTF...HELLO !! So I had about 4 of the wings and 3 french fires and 3 of the shrimps before I totally wanted to hang myself !!! I know that previously the damage could have been a million times worse but why did I make that choice when I've been so good about my choices ?????

The  good ending was that I went to a halloween social hour at work where there was beer and soda and chips and cake and greasy appetizers all over the place and there I mingled with my water bottle in hand and nowhere near all the other stuff..so that I guess was my redemption for my shitty choices earlier !!!

Monday, October 26, 2009

6cc's and a freaking awesome NSV !!!



So I got a third fill  and was just surprised at all the great NSV's that I got today. My  third fill was due since I dont currently have restriction and am still hungry every 2-3 hours. On top of that my free fills for 90 days is coming to an end next month so I wanted to take advantage of trying to get some sense of restriction before Nov 10th. At my appointment with Frank this morning ( which I totally love him, since he always accomodates me) he informed me that  ( NSV # 1)I had actually loss 9 lbs in the 3 weeks since he last saw me  ( NSV #2) that he was so impressed that I was doing so well with virtually no restriction that it was ALL me and he even called in the new doctor in the practice to share my progress. 

The BEST part of the day and by far the day's biggest NSV is that when I got home I had a nice little package waiting for me that happen to be my new anne klein winter "skinny" coat in a size 16 !!! I decided to try it on expecting that it definetly would not zip up and as I tried the zipper OMG !! IT WENT ALL THE WAY UP !!! I ran to the mirror and couldnt believe at the image that was staring back at me through the mirror...it was ME in a size 16 coat and I LOOK PRETTY DAMN GOOD !! HAY !!! It's still a little snug to wear with a sweater but OMG that was freaking amazing considering that I was wearing a size 24 coat in Feburary. Here are some pics of me in my new cute "skinny" winter coat ( ignore the hair, I was getting ready for bed!!)

Sunday, October 25, 2009

The scale...no longer a bastard...



Okay I know I know I'm 2 days early on the weekly weight posting but given the issues that I was having with my bastard for the past 3 weeks I was just curious as to what he was thinking so I jumped the gun and decided to weigh myself on thursday and today and am ecstatic to see that the bastard is seeing things myway and giving me a loss of -3.5 lbs for a beautiful number in the 220's of 226 !!! YAY !! I havent see a number in that range in................................well you get the point, a REALLY long freaking time !!!

Thanks to all of you who weighed in and I have decided to stick with the bastard. I'm still weighing in on the wii but keeping that as a seperate tracker.

Overall, I just can't beleive it that it's only been 11 weeks since surgery and that I am down 43 pounds !!! If you would have told me this in March that I would be back very comfortably in size 18's, wearing XL tops loosely and able to fit into 16's ( albeit with a muffin top) and 43 lbs thinner...I would have told you you're just freaking crazy...but alas here I am and I am feeling GREAT !!!!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Good article just posted by Katie Jay

I subscribe to Katie Jays newsletter and she has some wonderful insight about the battle to regain your life from obesity. For those of you who dont know her, she fought her way back to life from 380 lbs with the help WLS and now looks completely amazing in a size 4. I thought I'd post the article here so that others can benefit as well...

How to Find Freedom from Obesity


by Katie Jay, MSW, Certified Wellness Coach
Director, NAWLS

One of my best childhood memories is of the tiny tumbler Olga Korbut springing her way

into the history books. I remember thinking she was as light as a grain of sand -- and as

strong as granite.

What she did seemed effortless, but even back then (having taken gymnastics at school and

barely mastering a back walkover) I knew her accomplishments were a result of a lot of

sweat, persistence, and bravery. Her success was no stroke of luck.

When she dismounted from the uneven parallel bars and "stuck" her landing, I understood

that even the landing, and the victory pose, was the result of -- and celebration of --

great determination and effort.

Along the same lines, I knew reaching my goal after WLS and "sticking" my landing (i.e.,

making the loss last) was a reflection of my sweat, persistence, and bravery. My success

was no stroke of luck, either.

After my Olympian efforts to lose my excess weight, I wanted desperately to "stick" my

landing -- reach my goal, unwaveringly, and stand in victory.

Yet, as time passed, I wavered. Tested the limits. Regressed. Regained.

Thankfully, I still had a little of the Olympian spirit in me. I knew that I was going to have to muster all my strength and courage to turn my situation around.

I also thought about how hard Olga must have worked for her victory.

I had worked hard over the years, too! I had strived, sacrificed, and sweated -- with no

permanent impact on my obesity. Surely there is more to freedom from obesity than simply

working hard.



What helped to make Olga successful? She surrendered to a proven process, and undoubtedly, to a collection of knowledgeable people supporting and guiding her along the way -- coaches, teammates, cheerleaders, and even fans.

That's when it hit me. I had to surrender."Surrender," you ask? Yes, surrender. It's a strong word that often conjures up failed attempts and "giving up." But when I decided to surrender, I said goodbye to the old me and the things that weren't working.

I surrendered my isolation (which I called self reliance) and asked for help.

Making the brave decision to get out of my own way was not failure. It was maturity and grit. I realized I wanted to win as desperately as Olga did.

Even the most successful people in the world need help to develop mastery in their pursuits

and to find a sense of freedom from their old, familiar struggles.

So I sought help, too. I told myself, "That's what people who are hungry to succeed do!"

All WLS patients have had the experience of surrendering. The decision to undergo WLS is a lesson in surrender. You surrendered the idea that simply working hard (i.e., extreme dieting) would be enough to reach and maintain goal weight.

Over time, I have come to understand that surrendering physically to the surgery was not enough. I needed to surrender mentally and emotionally, too.

This meant I would have to transform more than my body to find my freedom from obesity.

Sometimes, it's a scary process. You may feel as though you are giving up control.

I want to assure you that the opposite is true.

Right now, all the Type A personalities who are reading this article are gritting their teeth.

But, what I have found in my own experience, and with all of my coaching clients, is that

only when we surrender do we find freedom.

I had to surrender the idea that I could do this all by myself.

I had to surrender my belief that I already had all the answers (and that nothing would work

for me!).

I had to surrender my low self-esteem, which was insisting that other people's needs were

more important than my own, and that I didn't deserve the time and attention it would

require to achieve and maintain a healthy weight, much less a gratifying life.

Only when I truly surrendered did I begin to transform at a much deeper level -- at a level

that can give me long-term freedom from the agony of obesity.

Surrender is when you take responsibility for your health, open your mind to new perspectives

and strategies, and become willing to transform physically, mentally, and emotionally. That is

where true freedom lies.



Are you free today?

I invite you to wave the white flag of surrender and know that you are not giving up, but surrendering what isn't working in favor of what will.

With a decision to surrender; to turn from old ways of thinking, feeling, believing, and behaving; you too can land long-term WLS success -- and make it stick.

Monday, October 19, 2009

The clothes fairy made a stop in NYC

I got a wonderful surprise in the mail today as the clothes fairy made a stop at my house. It's funny because Im so not use to really buying or wearing cute clothes since I just always wanted to hide my figure so I feel totally liberated and cute in all my new stuff courtesy of fairy- Gen !! THANK YOU SOOO MUCH !! I LOVE THEM !!!

BTW these are with no spanxx, no girdles...just my shrinking me !!


The scale went ..that a way ???


Here's my question ?? I recently bought a new scale ( the bastard) and have been using that one to take my weekly weight. It's pretty consistent to my older one which I have been using all along since pre-op. Recently when I started doing my wii fit, the weight that I get with the daily body test is usually about -2.5 to 3 lbs off ( as in less) that the bastard. The scale at my gym is also in agreement with the wii fit readings. So my question is would it be fair to just switch over scales and count those lbs difference as a loss or should I just stick with my bastard ??

Sunday, October 18, 2009

End of the scale conspiracy !!



SO I normally weigh in on mondays but with the conspiracy that my scale has been mounting against me for the last 2 weeks I decided to move up my weigh in day and FINALLY the bastard ( yes my scale must be a male!) decided to move for a loss of 2.4 lbs to 230 !!!  That gives me an official loss of 39 pounds !!!YAAYY !! Another number that I have not seen in over 3 or 4 years and I'm soo excited to get to that 220's lbs range.

I had blogged earlier about what my NFR was going to be when I hit my 50 lbs loss. Initially I had thought that I wanted to get a long awaited tattoo, but now Im thinking that I might push that back until I get to oonderland instead (it'll give me more time to tighten and it'll be a bigger reward) and will go with a new pair of fabulous knee high boots and maybe even a new bag if I can sweet talk the hubby into it !!!

Since I still have no restriction after my 2nd fill, I've decided to move up my 3rd fill appointment to next monday and then another one the 2nd week of november, I would REALLY like to hit the 50lbs loss by early december and be as close to onderland (-69 lbs) as possible and get there by my birthday on Feb 26th

Friday, October 16, 2009

Milestone rewards question ??


I was reading Allison's blog and she was talking about her plans for a tatoo as a NFR ( non-food reward). I have the same plan and was thinking of getting my tatoo once I reach 50 lbs loss. Lately I've been thinking about it and maybe I want to wait till I reach onderland, which would be 69 lbs loss !! What do you gals think ?? I asked the hubby and his thought was that I wait till onderland because that will gie me a greater opportunity to tighten things up and that for my 50lbs reward I should get some boots or a nice winter coat ?? Any idea chicas ??

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Propel..my new love !!!


All of my life I have had problems meeting my 8 glasses a day and post band that has not changes. Actually I pretty sure that the current scale stall might be due to my water although I have gotten ALOT better averaging about 4-5 glasses a day all thanks to my new love PROPEL !! Oh how I love thee !!! It is especially delicious uring workouts and I guess the electrolytes really help out. I found single serving powder bags by accident at target and cant live without them now ! YUM YUM !!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Does anyone wear focus dailies lenses with a -6.0 ??

The reason I ask is that we had a big box of them shipped to us by mistake for a person that has neer lived here. The company said that due to the nature of the item they cant take it back to please discard. I thought that was such a waste and figured I try to find someone who could use them. The exact prescription is...

Ciba Vision Focus Dailies 4 Boxes of 90 lenses each
-6.00
8.6
CT 0.085
DIA 13.8

Please let me know if you or anyone you know can use them.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Paying it forward..Goodies up for grabs

Hola ladies! Just wanted to post some new items I recently dug out of my closet. There are mostly 20/22, except for the jeans which are size 18's short/petite. Please send me an email to mrscutecuban@gmail.com with your address if yo're intrested.

Size 20 Bathing Suit, worn only once


















Size 18 Jeans SHORT/PETITE, have 2 pairs like these














Size 20 Sheer Shiny Black Top from Merona

Monday, October 12, 2009

HUGE NSV !!! Woo HOO !!


OMG ! I just updated my weight ticker and although it only budged 0.4lbs this week that pushed me over the edge to a HUGE NSV that I have been waiting for...drum roll please !!!!!

My BMI is now...39.9, which means that I am NO longer considered Morbidly Obese, now I am just plain ol' Obese !!! WOO HOO !!! YIPEE ( visualize back flips!!) and the best part is that I know that never ever again will I ever be morbidly obese !!!!


Biggest Loser Holiday Challenge to my followers....


I am a competitive person by nature and find that if I am challanged and there is a prize at stake I tend to be more motivated and determined at the task...so I decided to offer the challange to my wonderful followers who are my support pillars !

The holidays are upon us and we know that usually means eating and eating all the wrong stuff so here it is: The Former Fat Girl Holiday Challange !!

  • From Nov 1st till January 1st track your weight weekly and submit it  ( BE HONEST!) on mondays to the following email address : mrscutecuban@gmail.com. I will post the results weekly and on the week of Jan 1st the BANDit follower with the largest weight loss will be awarded a $25 gift card to their choice of Origins or Victoria Secrets
  • The rules are that you must be a public follower and you must have been banded within the last 6 months or will be banded by Nov 1st. 
  • You must submit a scale picture on Nov 1st and on Jan 1st, which will be posted if you are the biggest loser. 
  • That's it..a simple competition to keep us all motivated during these dangerous months up ahead !!!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

My 2 month bandaversary picture


YAY !! We officially made it to the 2 month mark and am down 36 pounds, have had 2 fills with a total of 5cc in Lucy ( my band's name, figure with her antics it's an appropraite choice). Still not really having noticeable restriction but able to go about 3-3.5 hours between meals before getting hungry again. Even though the freaking scale is launching a conspiracy against me at the moment and not budging for the last week I feel so much better all around. I have so much more energy, my clothes fit great, the compliments are coming and most importantly there's been a HUGE pick up in the sex life !!! ( WOO HOO)  So I guess this is the point that I take my own advice with my previous posting and admit that the scale isnt the answer to all things !! Besides without Lucy's help I would NEVER have been at a loss of 36 pounds in 2 months of all things !!!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Wisdom for when the scale screws you !!!!

Hola People...I like many of us on this journey have recently been experiencing the frustration of the scale conspiracy !! Yes you know what Im talking about...you worked your butt off this week, watched what you ate, made all the right choices and you step on the scale and WHAM !! WTF ??!!! Arrgghh!!!

Well I recently decided to join the Biggest Losers Club and saw this posting and thought OMG ! Finally an answer, so figured I'd posted it for all my losers to share and enjoy !!

The Biggest Losers Club is full of great advice, recipies, fitness challanges and weight loss competions. In case anyone is intrested click HERE. If you sign up now they're giving away 2 free biggest loser books with membership ( $39.95 for 3 months).

When the Scale Won't Budge



11 Other Ways to Measure Your Progress

Wednesday, March 08, 2006By Sari Harrar Special to Biggest Loser Club

Your scale can’t measure how great you feel, how much healthier your body is, or even how much trimmer you really are—and yet most of us base our opinion--and feelings--about our weight-loss success almost exclusively on that one little number.

When that number’s steadily dropping, all’s well. But if a day of indulgence, a body that’s off-schedule (or retaining fluid), an appreciable gain in muscle density, or even a glitch with the scale itself seem to stall your efforts, it’s easy to throw in the towel…and pick up a Twinkie. But don’t.
Ultimately, healthy weight loss will result in the steady shedding of a half-pound to nearly two pounds per week (depending on your metabolism, daily calorie burn, and starting weight). Don’t let natural fluctuations along the way throw you off course—not when there are at least ten other great ways to measure success.

See how you stack up by these measures that experts say are as important—if not more important—than a mere number on the scale:
You’re Feeling in Control

Are your healthy-eating and exercise habits helping you reach important goals in your life—such as having more energy and strength to play with your kids or grandchildren, having more confidence, taking charge of your health, or even getting ready for a charity walk? Write down your goals—and see how your new habits are helping you attain them.
Your Clothes Fit—and Look—Better

Your wardrobe doesn’t lie. Your favorite jeans, slim-fitting sweater or sleek skirt could be the best indicator that you’re trimming pounds or firming up. When the waistband on your freshly-washed jeans feels loose, that sweater looks better than ever, and that skirt falls in a clean line from waist to hem, you’ve made progress—no matter what the scale says.

Your Plate’s More Colorful

We don’t mean new china. If you’re eating more fruits, veggies, and whole grains, you’ve made a substantial contribution to your current and future health—especially if, at the same time, you’ve cut back on saturated fat, refined carbohydrates like white bread, and big portions. Got kids or grandkids? As you nosh on nature’s bounty, you’re sending a powerful message to them about how smart grown-ups eat—even if you don’t say a word.
A Happier Tape Measure

If you haven’t done this already, grab a measuring tape and check your waist, chest, hips (at the fullest point), thigh, calf, neck, and upper arm. The tape should be snug, but shouldn’t squeeze your skin. Measure your waist at its narrowest point, usually about one inch above your belly button. Measure hips at the fullest part, as you stand with your feet together. Measure other areas at the widest point. Write down your results, and re-test once a month to monitor your firm-up results.

More Energy

When your diet is healthy and you’re getting regular exercise, energy levels soar—thanks to a flood of good-for-you nutrients, steadier blood sugar (good-bye, rollercoaster blood-sugar that leaves you feeling tired, irritated, and craving more sugar!), better circulation of oxygen-rich blood, and to the stress-reducing magic of physical activity. You’ll sleep better, wake up feeling more refreshed, and face the day with gusto that lasts ‘til evening.

Better Health

Even before you lose a pound, healthy eating and regular physical activity create powerful, positive changes within your body that protect your health. Blood sugar begins to drop, insulin levels fall, good cholesterol rises with exercise and bad cholesterol falls as you substitute small quantities of ‘good’ fats for artery-clogging saturated fats.


Healthy changes can cool body-wide chronic inflammation, a factor in heart disease, diabetes, and perhaps even some forms of cancer, and may also improve fertility. As you lose pounds, blood pressure drops, too. Ultimately, you may need less medication for chronic health conditions such as diabetes, high blood pressure or high cholesterol. (Always consult your doctor about your medications and dosages—don’t make changes on your own.)

A Stronger Body

Two of the under-appreciated bonuses of a weight loss program that includes regular exercise are stronger muscles--and more stamina thanks to a healthier cardiovascular system. As you drop pounds and build strength and cardiovascular fitness, you may find it easier to climb stairs, walk the mall for a day-long shopping spree, haul the groceries from car to kitchen, or lift up your children or grandchildren.
If you've added another step for your step-aerobics class or video, have traded up to heavier weights or tougher resistance bands for strength-training work-outs, or can walk your normal route faster—or if you’re going out for longer walks than ever before—it’s proof of your progress. So show off a little--don’t be ashamed to ask your spouse or kids to check out your new, firmer biceps—hey—feel my new muscles!
A Mirror That Sees Less Fat

Try this after-shower body check: Take off your bathrobe and stand in front of a full-length mirror. Take a deep breath, then gently, kindly, assess your fat zones—chances are, they’re shrinking. Do a little shake—chances are, you’ll see less jiggle than in the past. Admire your slimmer waist and smaller hips, how your eyes and smile seem brighter. Be proud. Very proud.

Compliments From Your Family and Friends

When you're feeling frustrated about slow weight loss, an unsolicited compliment from a family member can be a welcome reality check. "Hey Mom, how much weight have you lost—you look great!" Don’t brush off the admiration. You’ve earned it. Now bask!

A Healthy Path for Life

Imagine what could happen if you let a mere number of the scale prompt you to quit working toward a healthier lifestyle. You’ll not only stop losing weight—you’ll also find yourself back on a path that leads to cravings, weight gain, low energy, frustration, and bigger threats to your health.
Remember All the Bonuses

Is your sex life perkier? Your mood brighter? Maybe you’ve finally found a way to navigate your biggest weight-control downfalls—perhaps you’ve cut out soda in favor of water or unsweetened iced tea, found the perfect strategy for not overeating at a party buffet, hit upon a filling yet calorie-controlled meal at your family’s favorite pizza joint, or devised an easy strategy for keeping portions in line.

Have you gotten into the groove of fitting physical activity into your busy schedule, or finally find the perfect exercise video? Are you enjoying more activity with your kids or introducing the family to healthier foods? These are all major life improvements that deserve a celebration—regardless of the number on the scale

Monday, October 5, 2009

Sailing through my second fill






Had my second fill today with a different nurse and although I was a bit hesitant since my last fill went so smooth with Frank, I have to admit that my fill with Gaspar was quite easy. I got an extra 1cc in my band today for a total of 5cc and unlike last time there wasnt any weird feeling of the fluid going through the tubing, it was over in less then 2 minutes. I also got my "official" for the months weight loss to 7 lbs !!! Their scale is a little different than mine but hey I'll go with the 7 !! YAY !!
I was hungrier earlier today but I had about 3/4 cups of soup and am totally full. My next fill is scheduled for Nov 2nd. It looks like their keeping me on the 4 wk fill scedule for now.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

2nd fill is tommorow

My 2nd fill is scheduled for tommorow afternoon which means I get a really good lunch and then zippo for 2 days ! God I hope I get somewhat of restriction !! I had some restirction right after the first fill but then it went away. I currently have 4.5 cc in my band and am still having all the classics symptoms of no restriction, the head hunger, getting hungry after 2 hours and the cravings.  My last fill with one of the nurses was relatively uneventful, there were no issues in finding my port and getting the saline in ! I'm REALLY hoping tommorow goes just as smooth. The good thing though is that I have been able to keep my portions down and have been doing extremely well with not craving the sugary stuff, so we'll see what happens after this fill.

And after ONLY 2 drinks....


SO last nite I met one of my best girlfriends for some celebratory drinks as she just passed her last written boards in anesthesiology this past week !!! YAY LIZ !!!!  We went to Clo Wine Bar, which is this really cool wine bar which has their whole wine list automated and projected holagraphically onto the bar and you can browse the whole menu and then choose your wine from the dispensary. It was absolutely cool !! Only problem is that I hadn't had a drink since BEFORE pre-op so....... 2 drinks later....I was just a lil loopie !! WOW what a light weight ( HA, all pun intended !) It was a particularly hilarious nite for me !! Everything was just so GD funny !! I know y'all know what Im talking about !!!